a beginning

i am not someone who is good with words. for the most part when i speak, i have neither a begging or an end- perhaps the opposite of a circle? i also never make sense, or complete thoughts or sentences. and most of the time, i have no idea what i am going to say. and maybe my words exist in a place too far from my fingertips, and maybe they remain unspoken, and maybe there is no difference. i have no idea what will happen, but perhaps the idea of rambling long enough to find the one word i am looking for, is enough for now. i have no idea where my words will take me, and maybe that is all i can say for now.